I can't stop coughing. It's extremely annoying. I've used the prescription from the doctor, OTC stuff, cough drops and drink about 10 bottles of water a day. But I am still effing coughing. And it keeps me uppppp. This is getting out of control.
I guess I'll lay here and hope to fall asleep.
12.31.2009
12.28.2009
Icky.
I woke up Christmas morning with an extremely sore throat. Woke up Saturday and my throat felt fine, but my ears were hurting. By 8:00 that night it felt like my eardrums were going to explode. And I was at Kyle's aunt's house playing games and trying to be happy. And I felt like dying pretty much. Then I wake up yesterday and had to go to work at 6 AM. Burning up with a fever and ears still pounding. After going to the MedCenter and getting some meds I went to Kyle's and my poor ears just got worse. Tears were actually running down my face. I'm a baby, but I was trying hard to ignore it. It was terrible. Thankfully later last night either the pain went down or I just got used to it, or maybe it was just Kyle being Kyle and making me smile, (that rhymes! ) but I was in a much better, happier mood. Woke up this morning and the pain in my left ear is tolerable. My right ear is completely blocked however. And this is very annoying. It feels like my head is stuck under water or something. No fun. Hopefully this all goes away soon. The whole first week Kyle was home he was sick. And now it's my turn apparently.
I better feel healthier soon.
I better feel healthier soon.
12.23.2009
Germ-X Please.
Kyle has been home since Friday and has been ridiculously sick. No fun. And I haven't been sick since October. Which is super good for my horrible immune system. But now I am feeling something icky trying to attack me. And I refuse to get sick! I have been using so much hand sanitizer this week, it's out of control.
I also found out that I got a random ticket from October (driving home from the doctor) in a school zone. I must not have realized it was a school zone I was in, which completely sucks because it was a $200.00 ticket. But not only did I get that, the ticket was mailed to my mom's house. And I was never told about it or given it. So I also had to pay a $20.00 late fee. Eff. I'm such a poor kid. And I'm moving out this summer. And I'm probably going to starve to death.
Just saying.
I also found out that I got a random ticket from October (driving home from the doctor) in a school zone. I must not have realized it was a school zone I was in, which completely sucks because it was a $200.00 ticket. But not only did I get that, the ticket was mailed to my mom's house. And I was never told about it or given it. So I also had to pay a $20.00 late fee. Eff. I'm such a poor kid. And I'm moving out this summer. And I'm probably going to starve to death.
Just saying.
12.16.2009
12.15.2009
I Have a Friend Now, Okay?!
I have been spending so much more time with Jess these days and it's been wonderful!
I have been so used to just spending time alone while Kyle is at school. I felt like a hermit in my bedroom, constantly. Last year was so hard; I don't think I was ready for it at all. Everybody left and I was stuck at home, at the time living with my mom which made things worse. I revolved my life around phone calls from Kyle and used to get overly upset when I couldn't talk to him. I was admittedly jealous that he got to go off to school and meet new people and go to parties and such, while I was stuck at home feeling miserable on a daily basis. This was no good at all since it would cause tension and result in unnecessary fights.
I feel like after I left my mother's house and let go of a lot of that stress in my life, things have been so much easier. I have been much more happier and so much more comfortable with Kyle being gone so much. But I still spent so much time alone. I've been so used to this that I forgot what it was like to have a real friend.
These past few weeks I have hung out with Jess tons and it feels so great to have another person to see and talk to regularly. Instead of being stuck at home and alone, waiting for Kyle to call me, I can now go out and not feel like such a loser in my room. And Jess is one of the most genuine, nicest girls I have ever known. I absolutely love hanging out with her, and it's a shame that it took so long for us to get closer.
Tonight, we went to Huntington. It was drizzling outside and a little chilly. And very dark. But with the aid of a flashlight and some bravery, we walked down to the beach and onto the boardwalk feeling like champs. It wasn't until on the way back that we lost our brave faces. The flashlight shown on a weird looking figure (a fallen garbage can) and I said "Is that a hunched over body?!" and she literally bolted for the stairs. I am laughing out loud right now just talking about it. So I ran after her because, although I knew it wasn't a body, the sound of her voice was so petrified that I couldn't help but be scared. So there we were running, laughing, and trying not to pee our pants from fear of the "hunched over body". I'm glad nobody else was around to see that. Although it was highly amusing. What an adrenaline rush.
And we went to Sonic for the first time! We didn't know how to order at first, but she figured it out. And then we had no clue if we were supposed to tip the lady who brought out our smoothies, so we just didn't!
It has been such a great couple of weeks lately. And I think I just owe it to Jess for bringing a little bit more happiness into my life these days. Life is good. :)
I have been so used to just spending time alone while Kyle is at school. I felt like a hermit in my bedroom, constantly. Last year was so hard; I don't think I was ready for it at all. Everybody left and I was stuck at home, at the time living with my mom which made things worse. I revolved my life around phone calls from Kyle and used to get overly upset when I couldn't talk to him. I was admittedly jealous that he got to go off to school and meet new people and go to parties and such, while I was stuck at home feeling miserable on a daily basis. This was no good at all since it would cause tension and result in unnecessary fights.
I feel like after I left my mother's house and let go of a lot of that stress in my life, things have been so much easier. I have been much more happier and so much more comfortable with Kyle being gone so much. But I still spent so much time alone. I've been so used to this that I forgot what it was like to have a real friend.
These past few weeks I have hung out with Jess tons and it feels so great to have another person to see and talk to regularly. Instead of being stuck at home and alone, waiting for Kyle to call me, I can now go out and not feel like such a loser in my room. And Jess is one of the most genuine, nicest girls I have ever known. I absolutely love hanging out with her, and it's a shame that it took so long for us to get closer.
Tonight, we went to Huntington. It was drizzling outside and a little chilly. And very dark. But with the aid of a flashlight and some bravery, we walked down to the beach and onto the boardwalk feeling like champs. It wasn't until on the way back that we lost our brave faces. The flashlight shown on a weird looking figure (a fallen garbage can) and I said "Is that a hunched over body?!" and she literally bolted for the stairs. I am laughing out loud right now just talking about it. So I ran after her because, although I knew it wasn't a body, the sound of her voice was so petrified that I couldn't help but be scared. So there we were running, laughing, and trying not to pee our pants from fear of the "hunched over body". I'm glad nobody else was around to see that. Although it was highly amusing. What an adrenaline rush.
And we went to Sonic for the first time! We didn't know how to order at first, but she figured it out. And then we had no clue if we were supposed to tip the lady who brought out our smoothies, so we just didn't!
It has been such a great couple of weeks lately. And I think I just owe it to Jess for bringing a little bit more happiness into my life these days. Life is good. :)
12.10.2009
Ouch.
I woke up at 6 AM with a migraine. Not just any migraine. One of those migraines that make me sick to my stomach. And I'm about to go ride the bus to school and take my Poetry final. This really sucks.
End.
End.
12.07.2009
My Brain is Fried.
Finals week is probably my least favorite week ever. It feels like non-stop study. And my brain starts to actually hurt. No good. I have my Phonetics final tomorrow. And my Poetry one on Thursday. Then I just need to do my Western Civ one on Blackboard and I'm done. Somehow, my Geography class doesn't have a final. I didn't know that was even possible, but apparently this teacher just doesn't care. This week needs to just be over with. Soooon.
On another note, I can't actually believe the semester is over. And the year is almost over. Time feels like it has gone by so quickly the past couple of years. It's out of control! Sometimes, I want to go back to elementary school. With lunch tickets, recess, desks that opened, innocence, feeling carefree. That would be nice to go back to once in a while.
Backkkkkk to the textbooks for me. :/
On another note, I can't actually believe the semester is over. And the year is almost over. Time feels like it has gone by so quickly the past couple of years. It's out of control! Sometimes, I want to go back to elementary school. With lunch tickets, recess, desks that opened, innocence, feeling carefree. That would be nice to go back to once in a while.
Backkkkkk to the textbooks for me. :/
12.05.2009
Blissssss.
Life is so much better when he's around. So much better. I see him and I can't help but smile and all I feel is happpppppppy feelings and everything just seems perfect for a while. Amazing.
I'm in a good mood. =)
And now I need to sleep before that lovely 6-2 shift tomorrow. Sweet dreams. <3
I'm in a good mood. =)
And now I need to sleep before that lovely 6-2 shift tomorrow. Sweet dreams. <3
12.03.2009
Can't Sleeeeep
Mixing Excedrin Migraine and a white chocolate mocha from Arabica is a very bad idea if you have to work at 6:00 AM the following day. Too much caffiene. And here I am, wide awake. I'll need a nap after work tomorrow for sure.
Not only is all of this caffiene keeping me up, but I am too stressed out about everything else. Sue really got to me the other day with her crazy texts. She is a grown 40 year old woman, and she has to try to start a fight through texting with her 19 year old stepdaughter. How mature of her. I'll never understand why it seems that almost every adult figure in my life seems to be so childish. She couldn't even call me when I asked her to. And now I guess I am supposed to call my father tomorrow and tell him about it (influence of Kyle and Aunt Rosa). But I mostly weigh my decisions based off of their opinions; Kyle having always been there for me and my aunt being the only adult in my family whom I can look up to. My dad will know in his heart that she is wrong, but I bet a billion dollars that I will get reemed for it. Oh, how my parents never let me down.
I am also still freaking out about moving out this summer. I am praying for Jess to get that scholarship so she can be my roomie. Not just for splitting the rent, but just having somebody at home with me would be wonderful. I'm not a fan of being home alone, so coming home to an empty apartment every day does not seem appealing to me at all. But the financial part is the scariest. Considering I make 8.00 and work probably 25 hours a week. I'm going to be so poor. Unlike my father, who can buy his huge house and fancy cars but not help his daughters with school tuition; or even some books every now and then. Hmph.
Andddd finals are next week. Poetry is killing me. And apparently I suck at interpreting them. This semester can't end fast enough. That month long winter break coming up is very much needed.
Thank God Kyle comes home for the weekend tomorrow. It will be very nice. :)
Not only is all of this caffiene keeping me up, but I am too stressed out about everything else. Sue really got to me the other day with her crazy texts. She is a grown 40 year old woman, and she has to try to start a fight through texting with her 19 year old stepdaughter. How mature of her. I'll never understand why it seems that almost every adult figure in my life seems to be so childish. She couldn't even call me when I asked her to. And now I guess I am supposed to call my father tomorrow and tell him about it (influence of Kyle and Aunt Rosa). But I mostly weigh my decisions based off of their opinions; Kyle having always been there for me and my aunt being the only adult in my family whom I can look up to. My dad will know in his heart that she is wrong, but I bet a billion dollars that I will get reemed for it. Oh, how my parents never let me down.
I am also still freaking out about moving out this summer. I am praying for Jess to get that scholarship so she can be my roomie. Not just for splitting the rent, but just having somebody at home with me would be wonderful. I'm not a fan of being home alone, so coming home to an empty apartment every day does not seem appealing to me at all. But the financial part is the scariest. Considering I make 8.00 and work probably 25 hours a week. I'm going to be so poor. Unlike my father, who can buy his huge house and fancy cars but not help his daughters with school tuition; or even some books every now and then. Hmph.
Andddd finals are next week. Poetry is killing me. And apparently I suck at interpreting them. This semester can't end fast enough. That month long winter break coming up is very much needed.
Thank God Kyle comes home for the weekend tomorrow. It will be very nice. :)
I Have a Blog; Cool!
So back in the day I used to be all about writing in a journal. And then my mother would find it, read it, write in it, and mostly just give me hell for anything that was in it. So I stopped. And after seeing Sp/Adam talk about this I thought I would try it! So woo hooo. Let's see how active I become.
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